"We all know that Art is not truth. Art is a lie that makes us realize truth, at least the truth that is given us to understand. The artist must know the manner whereby to convince others of the truthfulness of his lies." ~Pablo Picasso

Lately I've been feeling like I'm anticipating something... like something big is going to happen in my life...
Maybe its just knowing I finish university this year (finally) but I feel like, maybe, just maybe, something bigger and better is out there waiting for me.

Im so stuck with which direction I want to go from here with my life. Whether to go back to university next year for an honors degree or masters, whether it be back to the uni I'm at already, or to a different university within Australia, or do an exchange program overseas, or whether I should take on a job instead within my field, or get a day job for a year so I can finally go overseas and travel. I want to do it all, but I'm not sure what direction to take first, and its just SO confusing! I feel like I'm waiting for someone else to tell me what to do, it would be a lot easier to ask someone else's opinion instead of making my own choices

Doing a double major in photography and drawing (digital imaging and digital visual arts) this year, last minute decision to keep myself busy and keep more options open for next year, uni ended up being a lot less appealing than I first thought it would be, and I wanted to drop out half way through last year but Im persevering. Better off finishing my degree. But I went into a sort of semi-coma depression for a few months when a lot of personal stuff hit me all at once and I had a semi breakdown. It was like I was asleep yet awake, kind of like a waking dream... and I've only finally woken up a couple of weeks ago. So I'm basing my drawing major on this, how I felt and what I went through. Hopefully it will make for interesting and appealing artwork

Oh and I also found out one of my all time favourite artists growing up actually lives in Australia! I was like WOW! In a place I visited in Melbourne last year, beautiful spot that reminded me of her artwork, it made me think of her, and her work, and I thought, if she lived in Australia it would nearly have to be here! And she DOES! It made me very excited!!! If I ever moved to Melbourne, I would move there. Its gorgeous.

Anyway thats about all for now... just experiencing life and learning to grow up, really grow up. I can feel it. And anticipating life, anticipating my next move, anticipating the future. Its scary, but most of the time I can look at it positively.
So its time to take a deep breath, close my eyes and breath in the fresh morning air... feel an inner peace and go go go!